tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2608671970498233434.post5862489911614449065..comments2023-05-27T09:26:06.821+01:00Comments on Drunk in Cardiff: Onwards and upwards and thinking of drinkThe Drinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06141069644806867122noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2608671970498233434.post-44405384932836014752009-08-17T20:22:39.760+01:002009-08-17T20:22:39.760+01:00Loveya too Anybeth...
That's a big and brave...Loveya too Anybeth... <br /><br />That's a big and brave and very honest comment (honesty is almost always brave). <br /><br />I think I'm very close to where you are - and very close in age, I'm 38. Because of my lifestyle up to now almost all of my close friends are or have been heavy drinkers - some passed through the phase, others have gone on to treatment and like you I um and aw about their status and what drink might be to them now. Others now drink in what might be called a moderate or social sense - of course I don't know if they're screaming in need every night, but that's how they present themselves. Others binge then withdraw for a while. <br /><br />At the moment, I don't drink. I've gone so far as to say I'm committed to six months off it but even that feels like a struggle now. <br /><br />Some days I love drink so much I could cry for the loss of it. Others I hate it and could cry for ever having met it. If this is a disease and this is the cure, at the moment it hurts - I know I'll have better days when things don't conspire as they have done today to put a raging thirst into my throat. The gigantic Chinese takeaway I'm about to eat will help. <br /><br />As ever, many thanks, and apologies if I have misrepresented you as a 'normal'! <br /><br />CD.The Drinkerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06141069644806867122noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2608671970498233434.post-71703942441047371742009-08-17T15:10:31.178+01:002009-08-17T15:10:31.178+01:00I spent my time, and I want you to know this. It&#...I spent my time, and I want you to know this. It's the absolute truth.<br />I drink, and it doesn't "wreck" my life, BUT...and this is a big BUT: I know without a doubt that my life would be far better if I didn't drink at all.<br /><br />Why do I say this?<br />Because I know that I am an alcoholic that is just managing my disease the best I can. My time will come up again in the not so dinstant future where I have to quit drinking, for good, again.<br /><br />I am doing everything I can to stall that day from coming, but it creeps up on me. My 39 year old body does not handle the booze as well as it did 10 years ago, and will continue to get worse as the years go on.<br /><br />I have days where I am so hungover I don't want to drive to work, because I'm afraid I'll be driving drunk. I have nights I am up until 2:00am just doing nothing but drinking and listening to music.<br /><br />It doesn't happen all the time, but it's enough for me to know I am not a "normal" drinker and I should not fool myself into thinking I am.<br /><br />love ya.Anybethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01193999238104640590noreply@blogger.com