Monday, January 4, 2010

One for the road dear friends

A very nice man called Tom said some very nice things about my blog just the other day, for which I am grateful, very grateful.

I was so pleased that I showed what he wrote to Mrs CD. She knows I keep a blog about my recovery, or treatment, or whatever I feel like calling it today, probably someone studying medical coding and billing would know a better name.
However, she hadn't read it, and then she did.

"There's quite a lot about me in it," was her first reaction.

Her second reaction was tears.

That's one of the reasons why for the foreseeable at least, Cardiff Drunk is ceasing trading.

I've thought for a while that it's possible that being Cardiff Drunk and writing a blog called Drunk in Cardiff might not be the most healthy of things. I think it encourages me to think about myself in those terms too much and it encourages me to think about myself too much.

I'm pretty much the picture in the book for 'Should get out more'. I live in my head too much and I live online too much and I need to try and do less of both. I have too many secrets and I need to start living in the light a bit more.

So, for the moment, I don't have anything to say.

I'm really grateful for all the nice things people have said to and about me and to all those Chinese blokes sitting at computers putting up comments every day - thanks lads. Particular thanks I think to Anybeth and Ana of Ana's fallen angel for being particularly well, nice... good luck on your own journeys ladies.

I've decided not to delete this blog for the moment, just in case in might be of use to someone, and it's a record for me too. The email address is still alive and I'll be back to reply to any comments from time to time. I'm thinking of starting an alcohol and alcoholism news blog, in my own name, and if I do I'll come back and leave a link.

I'm pretty well as I sign off. I've been sober for more than seven months, the longest period in my adult life, I'm on the road to Prozac but considering staying off all medication, I want to start working/looking for work at the end of this month, and I can do 25 press ups in one go, which I would have thought ridiculous at any time in my past.

I may be back, who knows. But for now, if you spent it, thank you for your time.