Monday, January 4, 2010

One for the road dear friends

A very nice man called Tom said some very nice things about my blog just the other day, for which I am grateful, very grateful.

I was so pleased that I showed what he wrote to Mrs CD. She knows I keep a blog about my recovery, or treatment, or whatever I feel like calling it today, probably someone studying medical coding and billing would know a better name.
However, she hadn't read it, and then she did.

"There's quite a lot about me in it," was her first reaction.

Her second reaction was tears.

That's one of the reasons why for the foreseeable at least, Cardiff Drunk is ceasing trading.

I've thought for a while that it's possible that being Cardiff Drunk and writing a blog called Drunk in Cardiff might not be the most healthy of things. I think it encourages me to think about myself in those terms too much and it encourages me to think about myself too much.

I'm pretty much the picture in the book for 'Should get out more'. I live in my head too much and I live online too much and I need to try and do less of both. I have too many secrets and I need to start living in the light a bit more.

So, for the moment, I don't have anything to say.

I'm really grateful for all the nice things people have said to and about me and to all those Chinese blokes sitting at computers putting up comments every day - thanks lads. Particular thanks I think to Anybeth and Ana of Ana's fallen angel for being particularly well, nice... good luck on your own journeys ladies.

I've decided not to delete this blog for the moment, just in case in might be of use to someone, and it's a record for me too. The email address cardiffdrunk@gmail.com is still alive and I'll be back to reply to any comments from time to time. I'm thinking of starting an alcohol and alcoholism news blog, in my own name, and if I do I'll come back and leave a link.

I'm pretty well as I sign off. I've been sober for more than seven months, the longest period in my adult life, I'm on the road to Prozac but considering staying off all medication, I want to start working/looking for work at the end of this month, and I can do 25 press ups in one go, which I would have thought ridiculous at any time in my past.


I may be back, who knows. But for now, if you spent it, thank you for your time.

CD



12 comments:

Anonymous said...

A truly, truly sad time. Although, if not blogging is going to help than I'm all for it. I'm sure I won't be the only one that's going to be missing you and your writing in the future.
I wish you all the best just encase you don't return to blogging.
You've actually helped me a lot through all your writing and such and I want to thank you for that. I can't remember how long I've been reading your blog but I know it's been a very long time.
I'll be sad to see you gone but happy to know you've gone on happier and healthier.

I hope 2010 is very good for you.
xoxox

Anybeth said...

I'm sorry you won't be writing here anymore, but it sounds like you have a good reason not to...you're moving on with the grand thing called LIFE. TaDa!

please feel free to drop me a line at swimmingclear@gmail.com and say hello from time to time. or drop me a line on my blog. will miss you darling. keep well.

Ms Kay said...

I'll be sad to not see the updates in my sidebar anymore but agree with you wholeheartedly about the Cardiff Drunk thing needing putting away.

Good luck Cardiff x

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An Irish Friend of Bill said...

Sorry to hear you feel like not posting. why not try to keep an open mind about posting again? You never know, you might feel the urge to post again.. We are all able to change our minds as often as we like :0
I'm in London, but we have plenty of welsh alcoholics down this way :)
Anyway, hope you feel more amenable to posting sometime soon.. :)

Angela said...

Congratulations on 7 months!!! Way to go.

Anonymous said...

Dear Sir,
I'm not sure if these comments come through to your email or what, I just wanted you to know that I'm still thinking of you and wishing you well in your recovery.
I miss your blogs.
x

Anonymous said...

Hello DinC. I really hope that you're doing well. I remember commenting after seeing your blog in late 2009 (I think I was DinL then). Well now I'm DinA. Funny how moving away doesn't get rid of the main issues isn't it.
Well, take care. I'm still trying. I hope you are too. xx

The Drinker said...

Thanks Kids...

I'm doing OK. Ups and downs and ins and outs - the out round and about as well... Yaknow, the usual bobbins of life.

Currently in a bit of a low, which is why I think I came here again.

Thanks for all the love, that's why I came, and I appreciate it. I'm thinking of blogging again, maybe here, maybe under a new name - if I do I'll let ya know.

Peace and love and I know why.

CD x

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